vow

when you remember 

but not really you think

you remember but as you

reach back you find nothing

but vagaries and fog but you

say things like you would remember

if there was something to remember

but you don’t remember because you

can’t but you think you should remember 

every detail but they are gone folded beneath

everyday rubbish and daily detritus so common they

weigh down and blur memories into fond 

nothingness but that murk filled hole astonishes you

and you wonder even though you vowed to remember

all you do not and you can not but you dare not let 

on lest they pat your hand and kiss the top of your 

head because they too know you don’t remember 

because you can’t and you decide you 

don’t want to remember

©kcasady2017